she was sorting her brothers socks and folding underwear patterned with horses and rockets when her mother appeared in the doorway and said touch my breast and then got sick and better and pregnant with more boy and more laundry she never got over the lump her pregnancies were tumors so she went on the road to Pennsylvania and then Cuba where there would be no anesthesia excited by what her body could do she became flesh and a hot knife and threw a party after each one